Friday, May 15, 2009

Health Update

Things aren’t so good now. I’m dealing with a lot of anxiety and I keep feeling like I want to throw up – not in a my-stomach-is-sick way, but due to anxiety.

I’m getting more emotional (good in one way, as I hated being almost unemotional) but that’s turning into feeling down. Dave did point out that the beginning of winter, as the weather is going nasty, is not really a clever time to stop taking one’s antidepressants. Roll on, SAD. I guess I better make sure I get some sunlight whenever there is some.

I keep wanting to crawl into bed and hide, which also isn’t really a good sign. But I’m very tired and the rest is lovely.

I’m very tempted to just abandon the last few days of a quarter dose and go straight to nothing, so the drug can finish working out of my system and I can find out if feeling like this is due to the withdrawal or the depression. At the moment it could be either, which means making plans about what to do next is difficult.

5 comments:

Courtney said...

I know exactly what you're going through...just keep going, one minute at a time, and you'll get through it!!

Kerry said...

Thanks Courtney. Theoretically I know that, but it's good to be reminded.

orannia said...

(((Kerry)))

I'll be over shortly, so feel free to unburden if you need to! And if there is anything I can do to help (even if just in the practical sense), let me know that too.

And I think getting some sunlight wouldn't hurt...although don't forget the sunblock :)

Carrie K. said...

I don't really know what to say, other than please take care of yourself. (Hugs)

Erin said...

{{{hugs}}} Hang in there!